Wednesday, September 06, 2017

Black Disc


I wish there was one.

To hang on one's door. Or on one's Twitter or Facebook account or give an automatic email response. When one is incommunicado, please don't bother.

Like for today.

Feeling scowly and sad and a mite worried and physically challenged and super-tired.
And you know, this is when everybody decides to call, bang on the knocker, phone, message. Want to visit, want to make social interaction with me. And frankly? I don't. Not at all. I feel like one long week of rain. Miserable. So I ignore. And hide.

What makes it worse is the gorgeous weather outside, the blue of the ocean.

And yes, thoughts of Irma and the dreadful happenings of climactic weather conditions for our neighbour down below and to the left of where I am. And they have a guy in charge, so I hear, who doesn't believe in climate change and the warming oceans that cause this and that it's going to get a whole lot worse.

So I should feel grateful and safe.

And that makes me feel small and selfish and self-centred and even more miserable.

Bootstraps don't work.

Sleep is the antidote to misery.

I curl up and sleep and assure myself, like Scarlett, that tomorrow is another day.

Which is exactly what I did yesterday.

14 comments:

  1. The black dog has you in his thrall...Hugs!

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    1. I'm doing the do stuff E and it is lifting. Thank you.

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  2. [Peeping through window] Hope you feel a little better today WWW. [Tip-toes away].

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    1. Yes, I still have worries, read my latest, but feeling a little more positive, thanks T.

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  3. I have been trying to leave a comment for three days now. Each time I press "Publish" Blogger deletes it. I hope this one makes it! RJ.

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  4. SUCCESS! It seems only by using a US VPN will Blogger allow me through. Has Trump decreed no emails from outside the Americas, I wonder? (Or, just from France!) I think that Black Dog nips at all our heels from time to time. As we advance in years it becomes harder to deal with negatives in our lives - especially when those negatives are forced on us by others. I like to console myself that one day they'll get their comeuppence. Mister Vlad, included.

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    1. Thanks RJA for your kind and understanding thoughts. Would not surprise me if us radicals were spied on by Trumpites. Though his distraction at the moment (care and feeding of Marelago suspended) occupies him full time. About the rest of his citizens it is obvious he doesn't give a rat's.

      Yes, I feel the pile on as I wrote in today's post. Too much sometimes.

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  5. Hang in there gal. You've been down this road before and you know it will pass. Ignore the phone and messaging, put a sign on the door that you're not up to socialising at the moment. I am sure there are many who love and value you and will understand. Sleep, yes, best medicine. Hugs xxxx

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    1. Pamela, I'm so grateful every day that I could sleep on a clothes line, any time of day. It is a gift that so many don't have.

      I need you to post more about your ongoing life though I know you've had your challenges too, my friend.

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  6. Well, I went to bed yesterday in the afternoon as I had a sore back which was making me feel miserable.... but today I'm fine. Everything passes, you just have to be patient and upbeat and positive. easy to say, not so easy to do, but it works.

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    1. Friends help I find. And there are so very few I can share openly and honestly with but that's all I need.

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  7. You are very fortunate that you CAN sleep!

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  8. I like to console myself that one day they'll get their comeuppence. Mister Vlad, included.


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  9. I just disappear when I need to - no sign needed.

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